There was a stretch when people asked about your book.
After a workshop, over dinner, someone would say — how’s the book coming? And you had an answer. A real one. A chapter you were actually proud of. A plan for the spring.
Then, at some point you can’t quite place, the question stopped coming. And here’s the part almost nobody says out loud: it wasn’t that people stopped asking that got to you. It’s that you were relieved.
You can name the last real attempt. You had the evening. You opened the document — the one that’s been on your desktop for two years with a name like book-FINAL-v3. You read the first ten pages, and they were good. That’s the thing that makes it hurt: they were good. Then you got two sentences past where you’d stopped, and an hour later the evening was gone and the document said two sentences more.
Somewhere in there you decided, privately, that you’re just not a writer.
You’re wrong about that. And it has cost you years.
Because you can talk about your work. You did it this week — explained your method to a client, fluently, without notes, and it was good. The book has been leaving the room with your clients for twenty years. It was never that you couldn’t write it.
You don’t have writer’s block.
You have listener’s block.
You have a book you’ve never once been able to say out loud to something that was actually listening.